just another day in.....

Well Well Well.. Another week goes by and each new day brings some new something or other. This week I saw the wonderful change tragedy brings out in people... and they are not afraid to act human instead of super-human.... which she is much more familiar with. I learned that loving pink light comes from your heart and you can send it to anyone. I learned a rib recipe... that I will be using tomorrow at a rib competition ( I have never made ribs in my life) this should be interesting. I shared a 60 year old mink coat with my step daughter... she is standing up in a wedding and had no coat to wear with her dress. I couldn't stand the idea of her wearing a school jacket with an evening dress... that taught me I really have heard all those things my Mom has been saying to me for years... scary.

I was Made in Alaska ! Something I didn't know till I was 42 when I met my Birthmom. I have always loved that I love winter and never get cold. When I learned about the Made in Alaska thing, that all made sense to me... I learned this week that even that doesn't work as a person gets older.... I am freezing! LOL.

I am ok with not understanding what motivates others... but sometimes that still hurts. I haven't learned how to do it yet, but I am trying to let go. These problems and dramas are not mine, even though they affect me. I have very little impact on others actions... and people say one thing and do another.. oh yah, and here is a real eye opener... Even though people THINK they are sneaky.. guess what ... YOU ARE NOT.

I love dogs... mostly big dogs, but I do not discriminate. I knew that already but I learned how much they mean to me and my dog loving friends. Goodbye Murphy... I am sending loving pink light to her from my heart.. and to your Mom and Dad.

Family has nothing to do with blood. NOTHING. I have heard that phrase.. "Blood is Thicker Than Water" That is crap. Believe me, it is.

I miss some of my friends from long ago. I am so happy for their unbelievable success. I love them still and hope they know that and they feel it.

Hopefully distance WILL make the heart grow fonder ... or at least less hateful.

Where you are, physically in this world, on this planet, directly affects your attitude and ability to fight a battle otherwise very hard to beat.

Here is the deal... we learn things everyday... even if they are small things that don't make a difference. Or so we think. I cry at least 6 times a week... happy cry, sad cry, scared cry, cry cry, sob cry, thank you cry, loss cry... WTF cry... that is me, I am a roller coaster... always have been....

AND THAT IS OK.

Items learned for this week... AMEN

it's been a long time

Hi All....

I am still here.... wondering? How do these things happen? How does someone get that angry at such a young age... heck, when you live here in Chicago you ask that question weekly, or even more.
I am up watching the beautiful snow fall... heard the astronaut's comment this morning, man, did he get it right. We can all do better.
So I read all this "stuff" now..... and it seems the general opinion is if we all do something good, it will catch on... soon everything will be ok... But does Everyone know that? Does everyone care? I have to ask.
Just read a cool blog about a girl who isn't buying any clothes, shoes or books for herself in 2011..oooooooo I can give it a whirl too. Oh, if we all had just 1/2 of the money we have spent??? wow.
I personally would like to get healthier. What does that mean though. I have a friend who is going to get pregnant this year... she is making her body a "tempel" I love that, she is my hero. I ask myself this. Is the tempel on the inside and the outside. Is the mind the most important part of the tempel? Is the Heart, Lungs, Stomach, Colon... Butt???? Every day this answer changes for me personally. There are days I just am lost in the options of what to work on next...... Tempel, a word worth pondering.
I said to Chris, "Can't I just be happy with who I am for a while?" He didn't answer....
Hmmmmmmmmm