today

Well..... my "horrorscope" was right.... Have you ever wondered why people ask you questions, if they don't want to know the right answer??? What The?? Sometimes, even though I try to keep myself and my mouth in check... well things just fly out of it. Oh, to have a 3 second delay button. I wonder how much easier my life would be with one of those beauties!?? Just finished a great book..nothing too heavy these days. Drunk, Divorced & Covered in Cat hair. It was something similar to my future Autobiography.. of course my title would be "Dog Hair" in lieu of Cat Hair. There have been so many times when I feel like I am alone, but alas... there is a woman out in LA doing the same things and writing a book about it! Day are complication lately... seems like all the players on the field are changing their personalities..... I have a hard time understanding the logic, but I suppose it isn't my job to do that. My Mom used to say "tend to your own knittin' " But that is hard to do when you are so interesting in people and what makes the think the way they do.... Anyway. I think age makes people change - among other things of course... So, as I was trying answer the broad question posed to me... I kindof, shall we say.... went off. Sometimes I think I operate in a box that is just too small. Everyone is connected and invested, way too much in my opinion, in everyone else. I am starting not to like it. Maybe, it is just that I see things so differently... more now then ever. And when it comes down to it.. I get scared. I get scared for my future and all that I have invested... and I am not talking about money here.. it is all about the time invested. Some days are worse then others...mostly they are good.... just, some days I get scared........ Sometimes, I feel like my life isn't in my hands... I am searching for a way to changethat feeling.... I need to get braver... I know...... Bye